Well, actually, it's the beginning of a new year. And to me, that apparently means getting a new blog. I'm sick of this one. What can I say? I'm finicky.
So from now on, find new blogs at incurablepessimist. Sorry for those who have linked to me, you'll have to change the address a bit. I just need a change.
Truthfully, I never really liked the name of this blog. I have no idea why I picked it. Don't you love how that happens?
So anyways, look for my usual blasé banter over at the new blog. Thanks for reading this one!
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Thursday, December 30, 2004
hey look, another survey...
Snatched this from Tory's LJ. As usual.
THREE WAYS I AM STILL JUST A KID
1. I love stuffed animals.
2. I like to order off the kid's menu.
3. I like candy. A lot.
THREE WAYS I AM ALREADY OLD
1. I have arthritis
2. I have a horrible memory.
3. Lots of stress. Lots and lots of stress.
THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL "BOY"
1. I love blue...? I'm really not a tomboy at all though.
2. -
3. -
THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL "GIRL"
1. I like to wear pink (not Barbie doll pink though)
2. I know my designer brands.
3. I like to watch chick flicks.
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Working out on a regular basis.
2. Internship.
3. Skiing, maybe.
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Leah
2. Elle
3. Hey You
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. OshKosh0583 (currently)
2. FinePrint4 (my first aol name)
3. Whsprwhodares (another random name)
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. I'm open minded.
2. I have good friends.
3. I'm a pretty good listener.
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. How insecure I can be.
2. How indecisive I am.
3. I get annoyed with people too easily.
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. Japanese
2. Japanese
3. ... and more Japanese.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. Classes
2. Insects
3. Telling a guy how I really feel about him.
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. Water
2. Clothes
3. Some sugar or caffeine
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. pink Billabong zip up sweatshirt
2. grey tank top from Express
3. black sweatpants from Express
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS
1. Keane
2. Maroon 5
3. Death Cab For Cutie
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT
1. Ballerina - Leona Naess
2. Lack of Color - Death Cab For Cutie
3. Such Great Heights - Iron and Wine
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (Love is a given!)
1. Trust
2. Comfort
3. Understanding
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (You figure them out!)
1. I have my belly button pierced.
2. I am going to grad school to get a ph.d in psych.
3. I play the flute.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. Eyes
2. Smile
3. Facial hair (actually... the lack of)
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO
1. understand why people feel the need to take rights away from other people.
2. like Bush.
3. cheat on a test.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. watching movies.
2. Photoshop.
3. Listening to/playing music.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. Go see In Good Company.
2. Eat at Olive Garden.
3. Kiss... someone.
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. social worker (helping battered women and runaway teens)
2. working for Planned Parenthood.
3. interior designer.
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. France
2. Japan
3. Italy
THREE KID'S NAMES
1. not having any...
2. -
3. -
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Fall in love (I have yet to do so).
2. Own an ex-racehorse.
3. Get a Masters in Social Welfare.
THREE WAYS I AM STILL JUST A KID
1. I love stuffed animals.
2. I like to order off the kid's menu.
3. I like candy. A lot.
THREE WAYS I AM ALREADY OLD
1. I have arthritis
2. I have a horrible memory.
3. Lots of stress. Lots and lots of stress.
THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL "BOY"
1. I love blue...? I'm really not a tomboy at all though.
2. -
3. -
THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL "GIRL"
1. I like to wear pink (not Barbie doll pink though)
2. I know my designer brands.
3. I like to watch chick flicks.
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Working out on a regular basis.
2. Internship.
3. Skiing, maybe.
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Leah
2. Elle
3. Hey You
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. OshKosh0583 (currently)
2. FinePrint4 (my first aol name)
3. Whsprwhodares (another random name)
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. I'm open minded.
2. I have good friends.
3. I'm a pretty good listener.
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. How insecure I can be.
2. How indecisive I am.
3. I get annoyed with people too easily.
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. Japanese
2. Japanese
3. ... and more Japanese.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. Classes
2. Insects
3. Telling a guy how I really feel about him.
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. Water
2. Clothes
3. Some sugar or caffeine
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. pink Billabong zip up sweatshirt
2. grey tank top from Express
3. black sweatpants from Express
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS
1. Keane
2. Maroon 5
3. Death Cab For Cutie
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT
1. Ballerina - Leona Naess
2. Lack of Color - Death Cab For Cutie
3. Such Great Heights - Iron and Wine
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (Love is a given!)
1. Trust
2. Comfort
3. Understanding
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (You figure them out!)
1. I have my belly button pierced.
2. I am going to grad school to get a ph.d in psych.
3. I play the flute.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. Eyes
2. Smile
3. Facial hair (actually... the lack of)
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO
1. understand why people feel the need to take rights away from other people.
2. like Bush.
3. cheat on a test.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. watching movies.
2. Photoshop.
3. Listening to/playing music.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. Go see In Good Company.
2. Eat at Olive Garden.
3. Kiss... someone.
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. social worker (helping battered women and runaway teens)
2. working for Planned Parenthood.
3. interior designer.
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. France
2. Japan
3. Italy
THREE KID'S NAMES
1. not having any...
2. -
3. -
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Fall in love (I have yet to do so).
2. Own an ex-racehorse.
3. Get a Masters in Social Welfare.
post-Christmas
Okay, I know I haven't blogged in a while. But since I've been home (a week and a half), I've worked 53 hours (including the 5 hours I'm working tonight). Needless to say, I've been busy.
Since last week, Christmas has obviously came and gone. I was kind of sick, so it wasn't anything really spectacular. But it wasn't bad. We opened presents on Christmas Eve, as we usually do. I was feeling so not-well that when my mom came and woke me up (I had been napping), I didn't even feel like opening presents. But I did anyways.
I bet you're all dying to know what I got. So here's a list...
iPod (no, not a mini)
headphones
shoes (which came in the mail two days ago)
a Shins cd
an Aeropostale gift card
a Best Buy gift card (which I used to buy the Garden State dvd and the Buffy season 4 boxed set)
some cute socks
some sweaters
a Peanuts desk calendar
So. Garden State. Is. SO.GOOD. I love it. It's quickly on my favorite movies list. It was kind of cool, watching it for the first time, but knowing the music by heart and seeing how the songs fit the scenes.
As for the Buffy boxed set, I bought it because... well, because i wanted to. I thought about getting Alias season 3, but I have all the episodes on tape, and I'm still smarting over the fact that most of s3 sucked a lot. Plus, season 4 of Buffy (the first year she was in college) is one of my favorites (along with season 2, of course). It was before Riley got annoying and "bad" and stuff. My sister made fun of me, but hey... what else is new?
No plans for New Year's. I have a few days off around New Year's, but I think I'm just going to sit at home with my family. I want to go up to Milwaukee, but parking might be an issue that I just don't feel like dealing with.
Well anyways... work soon. I better dry my hair and get dressed. Work yesterday morning was... interesting, but I'll have to blog about it later. After work tonight I'm hopefully going out with Bev (who I haven't seen in forever) and Pat. It'll be the first time I've gone out with friends since I've been back home.
I hope everyone had a great Christmas and has a safe New Year's.
Since last week, Christmas has obviously came and gone. I was kind of sick, so it wasn't anything really spectacular. But it wasn't bad. We opened presents on Christmas Eve, as we usually do. I was feeling so not-well that when my mom came and woke me up (I had been napping), I didn't even feel like opening presents. But I did anyways.
I bet you're all dying to know what I got. So here's a list...
iPod (no, not a mini)
headphones
shoes (which came in the mail two days ago)
a Shins cd
an Aeropostale gift card
a Best Buy gift card (which I used to buy the Garden State dvd and the Buffy season 4 boxed set)
some cute socks
some sweaters
a Peanuts desk calendar
So. Garden State. Is. SO.GOOD. I love it. It's quickly on my favorite movies list. It was kind of cool, watching it for the first time, but knowing the music by heart and seeing how the songs fit the scenes.
As for the Buffy boxed set, I bought it because... well, because i wanted to. I thought about getting Alias season 3, but I have all the episodes on tape, and I'm still smarting over the fact that most of s3 sucked a lot. Plus, season 4 of Buffy (the first year she was in college) is one of my favorites (along with season 2, of course). It was before Riley got annoying and "bad" and stuff. My sister made fun of me, but hey... what else is new?
No plans for New Year's. I have a few days off around New Year's, but I think I'm just going to sit at home with my family. I want to go up to Milwaukee, but parking might be an issue that I just don't feel like dealing with.
Well anyways... work soon. I better dry my hair and get dressed. Work yesterday morning was... interesting, but I'll have to blog about it later. After work tonight I'm hopefully going out with Bev (who I haven't seen in forever) and Pat. It'll be the first time I've gone out with friends since I've been back home.
I hope everyone had a great Christmas and has a safe New Year's.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
another 2004 survey
Yup, another one. And don't forget, there's a real entry (and a long one) before this!
best _____ of the year:
1. party: the last Highlander (band party)... mostly because I didn't get sick, but I was really giddy drunk for a while.
2. show: Lost!! Or the OC or American Dreams... or Friends (until it ended)
3. cd: Keane - Hopes and Fears
4. movie: um... I don't know. There are still a lot of movies that came out this year that I haven't seen but are supposed to be amazing (namely Garden State)
5. song: hm... I don't know.
6. experience: I can't pick just one.
7. concert: Sarah McLachlan with Tory!
8. book: Pride and Prejudice (though it didn't come out this year... obviously)
9. month: um... I really don't know. Maybe December? The rest of the year really wasn't so great.
10. day: uh... geez, I have no idea.
worst ____ of the year:
(I'm skipping this section because I started to answer the questions but all I could say was "I don't know")
hopes for 2005:
1. predict something that you think will happen in 2005?: I will have a nervous breakdown. But considering I have those from time to time, that's nothing spectacular.
2. what do you hope changes about your country?: This country stops being so ego-centric and unaccepting of many people.
3. what do you hope for yourself?: my grades will continue to improve, I will find a good job for the summer, and come late next year, I will kick ass on the GREs. Also, that I stop being a chicken.
4. what do you hope for your family?: That my dad finds a job, everyone stays out of trouble, and Brownie stays especially healthy and happy.
5. what do you hope for your best friend?: the world, of course!
during 2004:
1. where were you when it began?: with Bev and roommate at a party somewhere in Naperville.
2. did you stay up?: yup... champagne at midnight, but very soon after, Bev decided she was too drunk to stay any longer
3. what was your new year wish?: didn't have one.
4. how many boy/girlfriends?: none.
5. broke up?: well, i didn't have anyone to break up with, so no.
6. have any crushes?: Yes. One. Well, one and a half, if you include an attraction that didn't last for very long.
7. care to mention names?: no.
8. new friends?: A bunch of them.
9. had to say goodbye?: naw, not really. To some of the seniors who graduated in the spring.
10. missed anyone?: always.
11. win anything?: minor things, I'm sure.
12. best place you went to?: well, the only places I went all year is home and the surrounding area and Milwaukee. Oh, and Cincinnati. Ugh.
13. worst place you went to?: they're all equally blah.
14. happiest moment?: :shrug: I don't remember one really happy moment... a bunch of semi-happy ones.
15. how was your birthday?: it was okay. I turned 21. :-)
16. best present?: hm, not sure. Clothes and shoes for my birthday. Apparently, I'm getting something really cool for Christmas from my dad...
best _____ of the year:
1. party: the last Highlander (band party)... mostly because I didn't get sick, but I was really giddy drunk for a while.
2. show: Lost!! Or the OC or American Dreams... or Friends (until it ended)
3. cd: Keane - Hopes and Fears
4. movie: um... I don't know. There are still a lot of movies that came out this year that I haven't seen but are supposed to be amazing (namely Garden State)
5. song: hm... I don't know.
6. experience: I can't pick just one.
7. concert: Sarah McLachlan with Tory!
8. book: Pride and Prejudice (though it didn't come out this year... obviously)
9. month: um... I really don't know. Maybe December? The rest of the year really wasn't so great.
10. day: uh... geez, I have no idea.
worst ____ of the year:
(I'm skipping this section because I started to answer the questions but all I could say was "I don't know")
hopes for 2005:
1. predict something that you think will happen in 2005?: I will have a nervous breakdown. But considering I have those from time to time, that's nothing spectacular.
2. what do you hope changes about your country?: This country stops being so ego-centric and unaccepting of many people.
3. what do you hope for yourself?: my grades will continue to improve, I will find a good job for the summer, and come late next year, I will kick ass on the GREs. Also, that I stop being a chicken.
4. what do you hope for your family?: That my dad finds a job, everyone stays out of trouble, and Brownie stays especially healthy and happy.
5. what do you hope for your best friend?: the world, of course!
during 2004:
1. where were you when it began?: with Bev and roommate at a party somewhere in Naperville.
2. did you stay up?: yup... champagne at midnight, but very soon after, Bev decided she was too drunk to stay any longer
3. what was your new year wish?: didn't have one.
4. how many boy/girlfriends?: none.
5. broke up?: well, i didn't have anyone to break up with, so no.
6. have any crushes?: Yes. One. Well, one and a half, if you include an attraction that didn't last for very long.
7. care to mention names?: no.
8. new friends?: A bunch of them.
9. had to say goodbye?: naw, not really. To some of the seniors who graduated in the spring.
10. missed anyone?: always.
11. win anything?: minor things, I'm sure.
12. best place you went to?: well, the only places I went all year is home and the surrounding area and Milwaukee. Oh, and Cincinnati. Ugh.
13. worst place you went to?: they're all equally blah.
14. happiest moment?: :shrug: I don't remember one really happy moment... a bunch of semi-happy ones.
15. how was your birthday?: it was okay. I turned 21. :-)
16. best present?: hm, not sure. Clothes and shoes for my birthday. Apparently, I'm getting something really cool for Christmas from my dad...
I'll be home for Christmas..
I have that song in my head. Heard it a few times while working at Hallmark.
My first day back at Hallmark wasn't TOO bad. I met a lot of new people. Worked with AMK for four hours, but mostly she was in the back doing important assistant manager stuff. I work with her for 6 and a half lovely hours tomorrow, but for all but two and a half of those, other people will be there as well. But I have to CLOSE. With her. Ugh.
Well, I'm sure I'll get over it.
Oh yes, and I finally know all my grades. Here are the grades that I predicted that I would have in the middle of last week, along with my actual grades...
Shakespeare:
predicted:B
final: AB
Theories of Personality:
predicted: C
final: BC
Phil.:
predicted: AB
final: AB
Christ/culture:
predicted: A
final: A
Research Methods:
predicted: B
final: B
Which leaves me with a GPA of 3.28, and a cumulative of 2.9. The cumulative GPA is slowly rising (it started off after last fall as about a 2.65). AND, UCBerkeley (where I want to go to grad school) only looks at the last two years of undergrad! So now I just have to keep improving.
So you'll notice that my theories of personality grade is higher than I thought it would be. I thought predicting a C was thinking positively. I had a C at midterm. Which means I must have done decently on the final exam... so I checked my final exam grade on blackboard, and I got an 85! By far the highest test grade that I got in that class (the class average was a 78.5). Considering how much I studied for that class and how frustrated I was getting, this is a nice payoff. But I am definately more than happy to be done with that class.
My Shakespeare grade also rose a little, which also means I did pretty well on the final exam, because on my last paper, the prof gave me a B, which gives me a total of two Bs and one AB on the papers.
So really, with the exception of the Research Methods final (which I do NOT want to think about. Ever.), I did pretty well. Yay for me!
Tomorrow, I start work at 3. And I work every day for the rest of the week... until Saturday, which is Christmas (and Hallmark is closed)!
Oh, I also have off New Year's Eve, New Year's Day, and the day after that. I'm not quite sure what the manager thinks I'm planning on doing, but now I'm free to do anything. I want to go up to Milwaukee, but I'm not sure who's going to be there, and where I'm going to park, etc. We'll see.
I also don't work very often after New Year's. Ah well. I'm racking up the hours now.
I have two presents bought so far, quite a few more to go... Ugh. I'm going to have to go Wednesday after work, because I get off at 6.
My mom just ordered me a pair of shoes on the internet. Yay! And she bought me a new watch (my old Roxy watch's battery died and she just told me to buy a new one, since I'd had that one for like 4 years). It's little and pretty and blue.
Well, I guess this is a long enough entry. I'm going to finish Emma (I've been reading furiously yesterday and today... I've only got about 10-12 pages left), then go to sleep.
My first day back at Hallmark wasn't TOO bad. I met a lot of new people. Worked with AMK for four hours, but mostly she was in the back doing important assistant manager stuff. I work with her for 6 and a half lovely hours tomorrow, but for all but two and a half of those, other people will be there as well. But I have to CLOSE. With her. Ugh.
Well, I'm sure I'll get over it.
Oh yes, and I finally know all my grades. Here are the grades that I predicted that I would have in the middle of last week, along with my actual grades...
Shakespeare:
predicted:B
final: AB
Theories of Personality:
predicted: C
final: BC
Phil.:
predicted: AB
final: AB
Christ/culture:
predicted: A
final: A
Research Methods:
predicted: B
final: B
Which leaves me with a GPA of 3.28, and a cumulative of 2.9. The cumulative GPA is slowly rising (it started off after last fall as about a 2.65). AND, UCBerkeley (where I want to go to grad school) only looks at the last two years of undergrad! So now I just have to keep improving.
So you'll notice that my theories of personality grade is higher than I thought it would be. I thought predicting a C was thinking positively. I had a C at midterm. Which means I must have done decently on the final exam... so I checked my final exam grade on blackboard, and I got an 85! By far the highest test grade that I got in that class (the class average was a 78.5). Considering how much I studied for that class and how frustrated I was getting, this is a nice payoff. But I am definately more than happy to be done with that class.
My Shakespeare grade also rose a little, which also means I did pretty well on the final exam, because on my last paper, the prof gave me a B, which gives me a total of two Bs and one AB on the papers.
So really, with the exception of the Research Methods final (which I do NOT want to think about. Ever.), I did pretty well. Yay for me!
Tomorrow, I start work at 3. And I work every day for the rest of the week... until Saturday, which is Christmas (and Hallmark is closed)!
Oh, I also have off New Year's Eve, New Year's Day, and the day after that. I'm not quite sure what the manager thinks I'm planning on doing, but now I'm free to do anything. I want to go up to Milwaukee, but I'm not sure who's going to be there, and where I'm going to park, etc. We'll see.
I also don't work very often after New Year's. Ah well. I'm racking up the hours now.
I have two presents bought so far, quite a few more to go... Ugh. I'm going to have to go Wednesday after work, because I get off at 6.
My mom just ordered me a pair of shoes on the internet. Yay! And she bought me a new watch (my old Roxy watch's battery died and she just told me to buy a new one, since I'd had that one for like 4 years). It's little and pretty and blue.
Well, I guess this is a long enough entry. I'm going to finish Emma (I've been reading furiously yesterday and today... I've only got about 10-12 pages left), then go to sleep.
Sunday, December 19, 2004
dream a little dream...
Funny enough, I blogged about not being able to sleep and half an hour later, I think I was out cold. Maybe all I needed to do was some bitching.
My sleep even involved a dream that I remember. And guess who was kind of in it? (if you were a frequent diaryland reader, or even an unfrequent one, you'll probably be able to guess)
Dave. Yes. He from my year at COD. "I watched him walk away and never saw him again" Dave.
And it was totally random, because he wasn't even the focus in the dream. He did not appear in bodily form. Plus, I haven't actually really thought about him in a few months.
The dream: It was my first day back at Hallmark. Random people were loitering around, including this one guy. He's waiting for someone or another to show up, so he sits down, makes himself comfortable. Karyn (the store manager) is there and doesn't seem to mind. I'm having a hard time with the registers (a harder time than I really will have tomorrow) and customers are getting impatient. Rachel is working too (I think it was Rachel... it was the only other worker there that I knew, anyways), and she disappears for a little while. Then she comes back up to the register, saying that she was talking to that guy. And he had gotten married recently or something (he looked about 20-21). And he has this friend named Dave. His last name was mentioned, but I don't remember it... just that it began with a B. Somehow, Rachel knew that this was THE Dave, and I guess she told the guy my situation or something, because he gave her Dave's number to give to me.
I wasn't exactly excited about this in my dream. I was very very baffled. And it was about then that I woke up and thought "what the hell?"
That's what I'm still thinking, actually, but to a much lesser extent, because I know it doesn't mean anything. Just my unconscious' way of being creative. It's just very interesting to analyze what my mood is before I go to sleep and have Dave dreams.
At the same time, I also want to jump up and down and scream that it's not fair, because I'm over him and have moved on. Maybe it was my unconscious' way of warning me that if I don't do something about my current crush, it's going to end up like the whole thing with Dave. Because that would really suck.
To say the very least.
Well, I'm going home soon, so I suppose I should finish packing. I'm sure I'll update from home with lots of fun Hallmark/AMK/customer stories.
My sleep even involved a dream that I remember. And guess who was kind of in it? (if you were a frequent diaryland reader, or even an unfrequent one, you'll probably be able to guess)
Dave. Yes. He from my year at COD. "I watched him walk away and never saw him again" Dave.
And it was totally random, because he wasn't even the focus in the dream. He did not appear in bodily form. Plus, I haven't actually really thought about him in a few months.
The dream: It was my first day back at Hallmark. Random people were loitering around, including this one guy. He's waiting for someone or another to show up, so he sits down, makes himself comfortable. Karyn (the store manager) is there and doesn't seem to mind. I'm having a hard time with the registers (a harder time than I really will have tomorrow) and customers are getting impatient. Rachel is working too (I think it was Rachel... it was the only other worker there that I knew, anyways), and she disappears for a little while. Then she comes back up to the register, saying that she was talking to that guy. And he had gotten married recently or something (he looked about 20-21). And he has this friend named Dave. His last name was mentioned, but I don't remember it... just that it began with a B. Somehow, Rachel knew that this was THE Dave, and I guess she told the guy my situation or something, because he gave her Dave's number to give to me.
I wasn't exactly excited about this in my dream. I was very very baffled. And it was about then that I woke up and thought "what the hell?"
That's what I'm still thinking, actually, but to a much lesser extent, because I know it doesn't mean anything. Just my unconscious' way of being creative. It's just very interesting to analyze what my mood is before I go to sleep and have Dave dreams.
At the same time, I also want to jump up and down and scream that it's not fair, because I'm over him and have moved on. Maybe it was my unconscious' way of warning me that if I don't do something about my current crush, it's going to end up like the whole thing with Dave. Because that would really suck.
To say the very least.
Well, I'm going home soon, so I suppose I should finish packing. I'm sure I'll update from home with lots of fun Hallmark/AMK/customer stories.
can't...sleep...!
Yes, look at the lovely time. I can't sleep and it's really frustrating.
"Really frustrating." I have to develop a bigger vocab than THAT.
I keep thinking about two thousand things all at once. Sometimes my thoughts are so unrelated that it sounds like I'm hearing someone else's thoughts too.
I go home tomorrow. Or, rather, later today. And it's a good thing. I need the home environment right about now. And the fact that I'm saying that is not exactly a good sign. The problem is, as soon as I go home, I'm going to want to come back to Milwaukee. When I went home for Thanksgiving, I lasted for about two hours before I began to yearn for the relative quiet of my apartment.
Things here are... what they are. I guess they're neither good nor bad. Actually, things here are in an extreme state of neutral. I can feel my life stalling, and hopefully, one way or another, going home with jump start it.
Part of my problem might stem from the unfortunately fact that I have become very very good at keeping my mouth shut. Not saying things that I would really like to say, but thinking them in my head. Maybe that's what this insomnia is. I lay in the dark and think of all the things I should have said.
There's a poem by Shel Silverstein that is entitled something like "the What-ifs."
"Really frustrating." I have to develop a bigger vocab than THAT.
I keep thinking about two thousand things all at once. Sometimes my thoughts are so unrelated that it sounds like I'm hearing someone else's thoughts too.
I go home tomorrow. Or, rather, later today. And it's a good thing. I need the home environment right about now. And the fact that I'm saying that is not exactly a good sign. The problem is, as soon as I go home, I'm going to want to come back to Milwaukee. When I went home for Thanksgiving, I lasted for about two hours before I began to yearn for the relative quiet of my apartment.
Things here are... what they are. I guess they're neither good nor bad. Actually, things here are in an extreme state of neutral. I can feel my life stalling, and hopefully, one way or another, going home with jump start it.
Part of my problem might stem from the unfortunately fact that I have become very very good at keeping my mouth shut. Not saying things that I would really like to say, but thinking them in my head. Maybe that's what this insomnia is. I lay in the dark and think of all the things I should have said.
There's a poem by Shel Silverstein that is entitled something like "the What-ifs."
Friday, December 17, 2004
the semester is OVER!!
Finally.
Today's final was... ugh. It was bad. Real bad. That's all I'm going to say about it.
I picked up my band stipend today. Made over $100. Pretty exciting. Now I don't have to be a grinch about presents.
Going home on Sunday. There's a men's basketball game tomorrow against Arizona. Work at Hallmark starts on Monday. With AMK. Oh boy.
Oh yes, I think the stupid toilet in the apartment has backed up a little. Don't have a plunger, nor does Walgreens carry them. And Katie's gone, so she can't drive us to Walmart or someplace to buy one.
Sorry about the lack of flow from sentence to sentence. I'm so bored, it's spilling over into the blog. Who would have thought... I've been waiting for the semester to be over, and now that it is, I'm bored.
Today's final was... ugh. It was bad. Real bad. That's all I'm going to say about it.
I picked up my band stipend today. Made over $100. Pretty exciting. Now I don't have to be a grinch about presents.
Going home on Sunday. There's a men's basketball game tomorrow against Arizona. Work at Hallmark starts on Monday. With AMK. Oh boy.
Oh yes, I think the stupid toilet in the apartment has backed up a little. Don't have a plunger, nor does Walgreens carry them. And Katie's gone, so she can't drive us to Walmart or someplace to buy one.
Sorry about the lack of flow from sentence to sentence. I'm so bored, it's spilling over into the blog. Who would have thought... I've been waiting for the semester to be over, and now that it is, I'm bored.
Thursday, December 16, 2004
musings on Christmas
Just watched the OC. It made me feel better, knowing that while my Christmas isn't gearing up to be that great, at least my family isn't as demented as the Cohens. So yeah, my family isn't as messed up as an imaginary one. Woohoo.
Maybe this Christmas won't be so bad. They're never horrible... just nothing really special. Another day, but with presents. I work on Christmas Eve, so maybe that will put me in the holiday mood... depending on who I work with. And as long as I don't come home to my parents arguing or something.
And I'm sure my brother will be with his girlfriend at some point, and my sister will be with her boyfriend. And I'll play with Brownie and his inevitably big amount of new presents.
At least there's a cute, happy little dog around.
Maybe this Christmas won't be so bad. They're never horrible... just nothing really special. Another day, but with presents. I work on Christmas Eve, so maybe that will put me in the holiday mood... depending on who I work with. And as long as I don't come home to my parents arguing or something.
And I'm sure my brother will be with his girlfriend at some point, and my sister will be with her boyfriend. And I'll play with Brownie and his inevitably big amount of new presents.
At least there's a cute, happy little dog around.
one more final to go...
So I found out this morning after my Christ/culture final that I got a 100 on my presentation in that class. Woohoo! The final was annoying, but not overly difficult.
Tomorrow is the Research Methods final. It's not as cumulative as I thought it was going to be, but it's such a pain in the neck to study for. I apparently did not take many notes for this section... but then again, the last two weeks were strictly independent project presentations. I think I need to call Amanda and make sure I have all the notes...
But after tomorrow, at 3 PM... the semester is OVER. Yay!!!! I'm so sick of these classes. I miss 8 week classes. I really do.
The OC is on tonight... and it's new. It's probably the one show that has a new episode this week. But that'd be because they didn't start the new season until last month. So while I really should be studying for Research Methods, I will probably watch that show. I'm bad. I know. Whatever.
Tomorrow is the Research Methods final. It's not as cumulative as I thought it was going to be, but it's such a pain in the neck to study for. I apparently did not take many notes for this section... but then again, the last two weeks were strictly independent project presentations. I think I need to call Amanda and make sure I have all the notes...
But after tomorrow, at 3 PM... the semester is OVER. Yay!!!! I'm so sick of these classes. I miss 8 week classes. I really do.
The OC is on tonight... and it's new. It's probably the one show that has a new episode this week. But that'd be because they didn't start the new season until last month. So while I really should be studying for Research Methods, I will probably watch that show. I'm bad. I know. Whatever.
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
2 more to go...
Two more finals, of course. Christ/Culture and Research Methods. One should be really easy, the other really difficult.
Today's Shakespeare exam was just kind of a pain in the neck. 10 short answers, 10 quote IDs. I think I may have messed up some of the quote IDs, but I got all the short answers right, I'm pretty sure. He also gave me a B on the last paper, which I kind of knew he would. He said that my topic was too broad, and that's what I thought he would say. Oh well. I'm pretty sure my final grade will be a B. Not too bad.
Ooo, lets play a fun game. I'm going to predict my final grades in all my classes and then we can see if I'm right.
Shakespeare: B
Theories of Personality: C
Phil.: AB
Christ/culture: A
Research Methods: B
I took a nap this afternoon... I wasn't going to, and then I decided that I would sleep for 2 hours, tops. Instead, I slept for 3 hours. Arg. But I'm tired again, so I guess it works out. Katie tried to get me to go bowling, but since I have a final at 8 AM again tomorrow (last 8 AM final!), I said no. I suppose I could have gone, 'cause I only studied for a little while afer she left, but now I'm being completely hit with tiredness, so I think I might just shower and go to sleep.
Oh, I just remembered... MeMe requests. I still haven't posted them. I think I've taken the pictures... I'm just too lazy to hook my camera up to my computer and upload them.
Today's Shakespeare exam was just kind of a pain in the neck. 10 short answers, 10 quote IDs. I think I may have messed up some of the quote IDs, but I got all the short answers right, I'm pretty sure. He also gave me a B on the last paper, which I kind of knew he would. He said that my topic was too broad, and that's what I thought he would say. Oh well. I'm pretty sure my final grade will be a B. Not too bad.
Ooo, lets play a fun game. I'm going to predict my final grades in all my classes and then we can see if I'm right.
Shakespeare: B
Theories of Personality: C
Phil.: AB
Christ/culture: A
Research Methods: B
I took a nap this afternoon... I wasn't going to, and then I decided that I would sleep for 2 hours, tops. Instead, I slept for 3 hours. Arg. But I'm tired again, so I guess it works out. Katie tried to get me to go bowling, but since I have a final at 8 AM again tomorrow (last 8 AM final!), I said no. I suppose I could have gone, 'cause I only studied for a little while afer she left, but now I'm being completely hit with tiredness, so I think I might just shower and go to sleep.
Oh, I just remembered... MeMe requests. I still haven't posted them. I think I've taken the pictures... I'm just too lazy to hook my camera up to my computer and upload them.
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