late night entry

Well, not TOO late, considering how late I've been up every night recently. But I actually went out and had fun tonight.

Recap of the night...

First, there was a women's basketball game against UWMilwaukee during the day. We won. :-) The women's team is the greatest. And then dinner at Webbs with some friends... I had a crispy chicken cesaer salad (because I know Tory would want to know). Then a men's basketball game against Kent State. Again, we won. Then to my apartment for a few minutes to pick up my bottle of rum, then to Michelle's to watch some Alias. There was also pizza and rum and coke. Four of us ate two pizzas and finished off 2 liters of coke. I still have more than half the bottle of rum (I think). I didn't have too much... about a shot's worth. Got barely buzzed.

But it was fun. I hung out with some people I don't normally hang out with, and it was just a good time. Alias is more fun when you watch with friends. Plus, it was all girls, so we got to drool over Michael Vartan and Bradley Cooper without guys rolling their eyes.

Okay, on to the non-recaplet part of this entry.

Has there ever been a person who just brightens your day every time you see them? That just being near that person makes you happy and content?

... Without that person knowing that he/she makes you feel that way?

And you having no idea how to tell that person that you feel that way?

And so on.

If so, then welcome to my life. ;-)

I'm sure most of us know who I'm talking about. I really just noticed recently how long I've had this little crush on him. It's been about 8 or 9 months. Yup. I tend to like the same person for quite a while... I'm devoted/pathetic like that. But if he starts going out with someone else, I'll be kicking myself. And that's entirely possible, because a lot of other girls think he's ideal, too. It'd break my heart and it would be my fault. Again. It'd be like Dave- part 2. And as much fun as THAT was...

So how do I ask him out or tell him how I feel? Jumping him the next time I see him is definately not an option (I can barely even talk to him...). I honestly just don't know what to do. Part of me says "carpe diem" but another part of me absolutely does not want to get hurt. And I'm of the mentality that if he did like me, he would say something. But maybe he wouldn't, because he's not exactly Mr Big Ego (which I really like about him).

I used to be pretty good with this telling a guy how I feel thing. But after the Dave fiasco, I've shut down in the relationship department. This is the first guy I've really liked after Dave. And if I don't tell him how I feel, I know I won't be able to forgive myself for a long time. But I just don't know how.

It's just been a long time since one guy can just... be there, and brighten my mood/day.

So yes, I'm asking for help. It would be so much easier if he could just read my mind, but that would be kind of freaky.