random money

I got an email a few days ago from the Office of the Bursar, saying that I have a refund check waiting to be picked up. My first thought was "refund for what?" The Bursar's is on the complete opposite side of campus for me, so I put off going for a few days. I had class only 3 blocks from there today, and it since it's so nice out, I decided to head over there and get this check. It's over $2,000. I like money and all... but I'm so confused. What is this for?

Two options. 1. It's from summer tuition (I dropped summer classes after just the first week and got all my tuition back). But I already got that money credited onto my payment for this semester. However, maybe they got confused, because my parents took out a loan, to pay completely for this semester and next. 2. It's from my student loan. My dad made me take out a student loan as well. But why would they give me a check?

It's the most money I've seen in a while and it's confusing me. I suppose I could go onto checkmarq and see what's going on...

I keep getting little stabs of pain in my sinuses, like there's a headache coming on. I wish they would stop. It's not helping my mood. Strangely enough... I'm in such a negative-ish mood today, after being in an extremely good mood yesterday. Maybe I'm paying for my good mood. It's like "we'll let you be in a good mood on a Monday, but it's going to be taken out of your good mood allowance for Tuesday, so then you'll be in a crap mood on Tuesday." I have no clue who "we" are.

So today's negative mood consists of me thinking that I'm worthless and stupid and a general waste of space. Happy thoughts. I don't study hard enough. And I'm making no money. Those are the main reasons for me thinking all that. I hate that I don't have a job. I know my grades drop when I do have a job, but I need to be making money. So, I'm looking into getting a job in the library. Hopefully. We'll see how that goes.